August 3, 2019

REMEMBERING ANDY

 

 

I once answered one of those perennial complaints that the ACC people are a cult, by saying, that, Yes, you do tend to love and revere someone who figures out why you are sick and helps you recover for free.

 

I had spent years trying to figure out what was wrong with me. I hadn’t been half as sick as some of the people I work with or listen to on the Facebook group.   But it does seem though I have had every single symptom you could get, just not as severe.  I was always trying to figure out what was wrong and doing this or that cleanse or fast…or boiling up  paper bags full of Chinese herbs.  And all those things helped but nothing would stick.  I also endured a lot of surgeries as this or that part of my body gave up and fell to pieces.  I don’t think anyone in my family really understood how exhausted and depleted I felt all the time.  Most mercury toxic people don’t get much sympathy, that’s for sure.

 

When I finally got a diagnosis I just jumped on it.  After a few mistakes and false starts, and all this part is kind of “the fog of war” for me, I finally got AmalgamIllness and just devoured it.  I read the yahoo group every single day.  I can remember, for instance, sitting in this grim little internet café on the Baga road in Goa, India, obsessively reading all the posts. I don’t think I had started chelating by then.  Andy used to post in that group a whole lot so other than from the book, this is the first place I heard his voice.

 

Later, I got to meet him because he came to a lecture series in Vermont sponsored by Biotics Research. I posted about it in the Yahoo group and Andy read it and thought it was funny and replied!  You can read what was said at www.maybeitsmercury.comin the blog section or at the Facebook page maybeitsmercurydotcom. I called it “I Meet the Great Man, Himself.”

 

By that time I was overcome with hero worship.  Andy was my guru.  I was his humble chela. I hung on his every word. I searched the internet for everything I could find.  I bought CDs of his lectures.

 

I think a lot of us went through this kind of transference.  He was so ridiculously brilliant and witty and he was saving our lives, too.  The thing is, he was a modest sort of person and he sincerely did not like being idolized. I eventually worked through that and started seeing him as an ordinary mortal, albeit one who was ridiculously brilliant and witty and who was saving my life.

 

One day I was looking through my messages and there was one from him!  My guru!  He asked if I would consider writing a book for him.  Kris Homme had told him I could write.  Apparently  nobody else he had asked had ever been able to finish anything.  I was the first person to actually do that.   

 

He wanted another book to sell so he could make a living.   He said I could write about whatever I wanted.  My choice. At first I just wanted to do a simple manual, not very thick, with all the rules laid out systematically, because I thought that was what people needed.  But the book grew and grew.  

 

Andy would send me big blocks of text and I would slice and dice them and move stuff around. I learned a whole lot from working with him.  The fact that I have no scientific background whatsoever was an advantage because once I understood what he was saying, I was able to put it into words that a layperson can understand.  Plus there were things that he just assumed that everybody knows that were huge revelations to me. He just assumed things like, “everybody knows that insomnia is caused by your adrenal system being all gummed up.”  But that was a world class revelation for me.  Or that anxiety is from your adrenals, too.  I had suffered with anxiety ALL OF MY LIFE!

 

So we labored away together on this thing for several years.   I was living up on hill in Port Antonio, Jamaica in a board house with no electricity so I would hike down the rocky path with my laptop and work in the gazebo of a decrepit guest house.  The electricity came from an extension cord through the yard and the roof leaked and there was not a comfortable chair in the place.

 

Later on, I flew out to Seattle and stayed with him and Joanne at their place.  He told me that he had spent three days cleaning up for my visit.  And he also had to totally readjust his schedule because he tended to sleep in the day and stay up all night working and talking to people all over the world. He got a cot and we struggled with assembling it and I slept in his “book room.” We sat at his old computer all day and went through the manuscript word by word. If there was some topic I thought we needed to cover, I would just ask him and it was all there right in his head. Andy cooked dinner for us every night.  He loved to cook and he was good at it.

 

While I was there, I got to see his “manufacturing facilities,” which was a garage with pallet loads of photocopied pages, and an industrial strength hand stapler. He manufactured AmalgamIllnessand HairTestInterpretationall by himself and mailed them out via the postman who came to his door. Any business coach would have been horrified.

 

Once I wrote an article about him and went on about how selfless he was and how he helped people for free and yada, yada, yada.  He got really mad at me, “You don’t know anything about my business!” I guess he wasn’t that crazy about the mushy persona I had made for him.  He talked to people all over the word and helped them for free all the time, because that was what he liked to do.  He probably should have been writing blogs and posting on social media with ‘calls to action’ and charging money and selling books and the fact that he didn’t was in some ways his deep kindness of heart and in another that deep mercurial procrastination symptom.  He also procrastinated about chelating.  I think he told me he only did a year and a half.  Just enough to get his intellect up and running again….and of course he died really young of a heart attack.  I have to think that if he had stuck with the program, that wouldn’t have happened.

 

Towards the end, he did a massive amount of work.  I was concerned that there was a disconnect between understanding that autism and amalgam illness is the same thing.  I thought we had better have a section on mercury poisoning in children.  So he sent me that huge section, “Does your child need to chelate, too?”  That is a very important chapter, along with the rules about pregnancy and lactation. Joanne told me that he was getting more and more tired by that time.   I feel that his heart’s blood went into those chapters.

 

Then he up and died like that, right after sending me the chapter on childhood development.  He was just getting ready to book his ticket to come to Vermont.  I was going to put him up in my brother’s Airbnb and was figuring out where we could work together.  My poor brother, who is now far gone with dementia, was looking forward to having Andy check him out.  I was going to take him to dinner at my daughter’s house and show him off. ( My SIL is a chemical engineer, too.) Then he up and died like that!   

 

He made me do a lot of reading before we got started, but basically I didn’t do a lick of research for that book.  All I would have to do is ask him a question and all the information would come full blown out of his brain. I was really worried about how to proceed without him. I am a French major which is not very useful for understanding chemistry.  But with the help of Brian and Linda and many other people, Joanne and I were able to finish.  Joanne knew a lot about diabetes so she wrote that chapter…and we got it done.  I know that more and more people are reading it. It is making his work really accessible and I am so happy about that.

 

I miss you Andy.  We all miss you.  Thank you for figuring this stuff out so that I now have a life! It was an honor to get to write that book with you.


 

 

July 4, 2019

My first encounter with Dr. Cutler and our subsequent back and forth in the Yahoo group.  This took place in 2010.  I labeled it "Met the Great Man Himself."

July 12, 2019

This is a piece I wrote about what a strange phenomenon it is to observe your personality change.  I have been dealing with mercury in my body and brain probably since I was 8 years old.  Now it's pretty much gone and it has been a very enlightening experience.


Anatta, dukkha and anicca are foundational concepts of Buddhism.   Anicca means “Impermanence” and refers to the fact that nothing in this universe can be counted on to not be in constant change.  Dukkha is sometimes translated as “suffering” but refers more accurately to the sense of dissatisfaction and unease that is so universal in human experience.  Anatta, or “non self” is a bit difficult to grasp.  


Joseph Goldstein explained annatta at a meditation retreat I attended.  He called our attention to the constellations hanging in the night sky. The big dipper, for instance, is not a real object but rather a configuration of stars billions of light years apart.   The “big dipper” exists as a concept, an idea that we have cobbled together in our mind. In the same way, he explained, the “self” is a configuration of thoughts and emotions, of “mental objects,” that have coalesced to form the concept of a permanent thing. 


And how does this relate to mercury poisoning?  Mercury poisoning  causes hundreds of different symptoms.  Most of these symptoms are physical, but there are many psychological ones, too.   Wikipedia, in its description of “erethism mercurialis,” or mad hatters disease lists the following:  irritability, low self-confidence, depression, apathy, shyness and timidity.  A person with chronic mercury poisoning can have a persona that incorporates these characteristics and think that this personality is a permanent thing and just who he or she  is.

 The process of chelation removes mercury from the body.  When done properly, it is a slow process, but as the treatment proceeds, the mercury caused attributes, which the person considered part of their personality, slowly drop away.  A shy person, will discover to their surprise that they now have self-confidence.  A person with chronic anxiety will realize that they no longer worry all the time.  It is one thing to have physical symptoms go away, but to have aspects of what one considered their personality go away is quite astounding and illuminating.

When mercury is chelated out of the brain and body systems it does not mean that we will no longer be subject to “old age, sickness and death,” but minus the anxiety, minus the depression, and minus the various distressing chronic health problems, the body and mind can relax into “ease of wellbeing.”.


I once asked Andy Cutler what percentage of a psychiatrist friend’s customers he thought had mercury poisoning.  His answer was 90%. I do not wish to say that psychotherapy is useless and everybody should just chelate.  Trauma is real and years of patterns that are caused by purely physiological reasons can set up thought habits that may need to be untangled. But it is hard to work on your psychological health when dragged down by a poison that causes personality changes



 

 

 




ANDY ON MEDICINE
"Dietary supplements and prescription drugs are all chemicals. Neither are magically better than the other. We simply want you to use those chemicals that will make you feel better. Our experience has been that dietary supplements are more likely to be tolerated and are often as useful as drugs, although for certain conditions prescription drugs are necessary and do work better.
From: "The Mercury Detoxification Manual" p.77.
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WHAT ANDY HAD TO SAY ABOUT THE VACCINE MORTALITY CHART

 

Andy Cutler author of Amalgam Illness, Diagnosis andTreatment, Hairtest Interpretation, Finding Hidden Toxicities and coauthor (with me) of, The Mercury Detoxification Manual,  was a brilliant man, a research scientist and chemical engineer with a PhD from Princeton. Because of his work on mercury toxicity, he saw a lot of vaccine injury and had pretty strong opinions about the current CDC vaccine schedule and the harm it is causing.  But his opinions are unexpectedly nuanced.

 

In a post he made online sometime before he died, he commented on the famous chart prepared by Dr. Suzanne Humphries that shows the mortality rates of infectious diseases dropping off way before various vaccines are introduced. “Anti-vaxxers” use this chart to justify their opinion that vaccines never did anything in the first place and all the decline in outbreaks of epidemic diseases has been due to sanitation and antibiotics.

 

Andy disagreed with that opinion.  The mortality rates drop off exponentially over the years, but when the vaccines are introduced, the chart lines stop wiggling and straighten right out.  According to him, each wiggle represents a disease outbreak and the vaccines put an end to these outbreaks. The mistake and dishonesty is to predict that if the epidemics return the mortality rates will be consistent  with the left hand side of the chart. (The ‘vaccines are the victim of their own success’ argument.)  He says there is no doubt that if the vaccines were discontinued that the epidemics would reappear.  The mortality rates would not be the high rates shown at the beginning of the chart, however, but the really low rates at the end.  

 

The question is, for any particular child, is the risk from the disease worse than the risk from the vaccine? And the answer to that, if you have eyes to see the vast holocaust of vaccine injuries we are now experiencing, is NO.  If the vaccine program was stopped, the epidemics would return along with plenty of morbidity and death, but way less than shown at the beginning of the chart and way less than what the current vaccine program is causing right now. 

 

Andy once speculated that if there were a moratorium on vaccines tomorrow, there would be a lag period before the epidemics returned.  He speculated that this would cause all the pediatricians to go bankrupt because right now they make most of their income from vaccinations.

 

He complained about this urge to “vaccinate everybody for everything all of the time.”  He thought that the CDC vaccine schedule is insane and no child should undergo it.   But he did have the following to say about herd immunity: 

“Herd immunity is a real effect, However it is also criminal collectivism of the sort Hitler, Stalin and Mao thought was an appropriate basis for public policy. There are no circumstances where you should be compelled to do something and put yourself at risk to benefit me.”

 

The only vaccine he seems to have thought worth considering is tetanus.  If you have a child who plays a lot in the dirt in a country where there have been tetanus cases in the last ten years, you might consider a tetanus shot. (Of course you can’t just get a tetanus shot on its own, but that is another issue.)

 

I once had a scientist tell me, “If I have any God, it is the scientific method.”  Andy was a true scientist: a person who was trained to look at data dispassionately and seek to reach the simplest and most logical conclusions. He did not like the vaccination schedule and he referred to modern medicine as “a child sacrificing state religion,” but he does not conclude from this chart that vaccines don’t and never worked.  

 

If we are going to argue our point well, we need to understand what is really going on.

 

 

> So, last Friday I went to the Biotics Research "fest" and paid $150 to hear Andy speak and also for that got a nifty blue bag with a lot of propaganda and a few useful plastic items with logos on them.

I didn't even end up with the 'swag bag.' ;-(

> Andy's lecture was low key.  

I am on the downside of the sore throat and lingering cough that is going around, I was a bit concerned that I wasn't quite 'up' enough, but the audience members I talked to thought it was fine.

>He had a power point presentation 

The conference asked that it be that way.

>in the same font he uses in his books with no bells and whistles. He covered all the essential stuff from his books without getting excited: tests, chelation protocols, half life, hair tests and supplements. The audience seemed pretty attentive. Maybe there were about 150 people(?)

That seems about right.

> I got to ask my question about the challenge tests. I asked this in order to educate the public. really. Dr Shcenck said he was not convinced by the answer. "YOu need to read the book, Dr. Schenck. Find the time to read it!" The rest of the audience also seemed pretty upset by what he had to say about Alpha Lipoic Acid. "No, it is not a good idea to take 250 mg twice a day. No, that is huge amount and the wrong schedule."

Yes, it is the alternative medicine community's contribution to the mercury holocaust, to go along with the carelessness of the mainstream doctors and dentists in loading us up with the stuff in various forms.

It's difficult to know exactly how to present the classic message "the emperor has no clothes." I am sure it will ever be thus. Progress consists half of figuring out cool new things, and half of figuring out something we thought was a good idea, isn't. One of the problems with health care providers being trained instead of educated is they have a really hard time with the second part of progress - even though that's been the human condition for millenia, they're surprised when it comes up yet again.

> Afterwards, there was an excited little group around Andy in the lobby asking questions and I listened in to all that. 

It was actually a very good interaction! They were genuinely interested. Unlike some mostly MD groups I've interacted with, they didn't spend a lot of time making statements to me or pontificating, they asked pointed and relevant questions and made sure they understood the answers, and why I gave them. Very refreshing, actually. They may or may not have agreed with me, but at least they understood what I was saying before they decided.

> I also asked about my hair test which I took while chelating and taking minerals, He agreed it was probably useless. Some of the practitioners who asked questions here seemed really wonderful and I wished they lived around here rather than in St. Louis, 

I was pretty impressed by the lady doctor from St. Louis as well.

>and some seemed to be trying to figure out their own problems or relatives' problems. My dentist was hell bent on finding out what supplements to take to keep from killing himself.  

I would clarify this by saying that he was not asking any questions relating to supplements that prevent suicidal ideation, or that address depression. He was asking what supplements might protect him against mercury since he is exposed every day, day in and day out. BTW, he is taking the best care I've heard of a mercury free dentist taking to protect himself from exposure at the office which suggests he takes the same kind of care to protect his patients.

>One comment Any made about the ALA was that taking large doses is like Russian Roulette. People who play that don't all get killed. I will keep this analogy for the challenge tests, too.  

Yes, it seems to be a very good analogy in terms of communicating and getting people to think.  

>I took two and nothing happened, but I'm not doing any more, for sure!

> Andy is a rather stout person with masses of grey hair in a ponytail and a big grey beard, too. He has a big prominent nose and also very prominent eyes. I liked the way he looked but then I am a fan. People have been commenting on his personality and about that I would say, the guy is a scientist and an engineer. My son-in-law, who I live with, is also a chemical engineer and he has a very similar manner.  

Yes. I'm very much the geek. My online persona is somewhat different, largely due to the invective I heap on DOCTORS WHO DON'T KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT MEDICINE when I'm trying to get people to not hurt themselves (or put themselves at risk playing the health care equivalent of Russian Roulette).

>It is not very "touchy feely" but rather gets straight to the point. To counteract that, I found him to have excellent manners. I imagine he does not suffer fools gladly and, sensitive as I am, I also did not want to display too much "mercury nuttiness." The guy must have some reserves of patience to deal with the likes of us!

> I also met another "fan" there whose name, I think, was Karen.  

Kris, actually.

>She had a really good handout, "Chronic Mercury Poisoning, A Summary of the Science," and has a blog at mercuryandmore.weebly.com.

> So, I am so glad I went! It was very exhausting for me and I got all excited. At one point people were asking ME questions about the protocol and I was answering like a pro!  

Well, you are in one sense. You actually did it. That's a lot more experience with it than they have - and VERY practical!

>After that I went to a family barbecue and had a hamburger and a gin and tonic and got sick as a dog and spent all yesterday in bed with what seemed like an brick in my digestive track. Happy to say I am all well now.

> Rebecca S.

It was nice to meet you!

Hopefully more chelation will make meetings, family barbecues, interesting food, etc. just run of the mill everyday occurrences instead of stressful and physiologically demanding events.

Andy